laughter

This morning I went with my brother and my dad to get my brother's new glasses. After that we went to some pizza place in California Club and went to the movies there as well. We saw Stepbrother...GARBAGE. If I was the one who paid I'd be hot. I'd want my money back cuz that movie was lame.

Why does laughter seem like a temporary cure. At the moment it erases everything. Once the show is over, you're back to reality. And somehow it hits me harder each time.

I need a plan! I've been reconsidering the military lately. Who knows, I could leave and cme back a better person. Or I could come back as even more of an emotional wreck. All I know is imma get all my info together and weigh out the pros and cons. There's already those who snicker at the thought of ME being in any of the military branches. But for me that's even more of a reason to do it. Prove the fan base wrong and for them to always remember, I'm never what you think I am.

It's not a simple task to give definition to something you didn't create. Especially when that "something" is a human being. We change. Constantly. Some of it makes us a better person, some of it makes us worse. Either way change cannot be avoided. Two... we are multi-faceted creatures. Yes creatures! Whatever you see in me, know that there's always more.

If you really want to get to know me, close your eyes... and... listen
I ask that you not be distracted by what you see or what you think you see
Empathize with me
When it's time for you to open your eyes and look at me, try
To see light through my eyes
I ask that you don't make excuses for me, or feel sorry for me
Just help
Me
To be a better person
I ask that you don't fault me for what I don't know
Teach me